No Regrets

What a year 2011 was. I was swept by the tidal wave of life, all the time trying to stay afloat and remain calm. First, the amount of work in MGS and at home. Actually, things were much easier due to the fact KH no longer had to commute to JB weekly. However, there were so many things I wanted to do, and I was in a constant flurry, ignoring all signs that my body was giving way. The surgery was the turning point of my life. I stopped trying to slot every task or 'hobby' into daily schedules.

The most obvious examples were:
1. I stopped my shopping at pasar tani every Wednesday morning, i.e. trying to fill my Old Faithful's trunk in 10 minutes before school started.
2. I no longer go to Elaine to retouch my roots, send one of our girls to tuition, get a hairwash and treatment, then rush to pick up our daughter. Elaine's comment that she would never do that to herself woke me up.

I have replaced my obsession with pasar tani by spending more time for our weekly marketing with KH. I indulge in longer breakfasts after shopping, just enjoying his company. As for retouching the notorious roots, I spend more time chatting to Elaine. She, and many other friends have noticed that I am more relaxed.

I always feel that God has his own plans. Barely three weeks after recuperation from the surgery, came the letter of promotion. Although the feeling of homesickness for MGS has not lessened much, I am gradually making new friends in Puterijaya. The workload is much lighter, and I get to concentrate on my favourite subject, Economics.

I think the best part of 2011 is falling in love with my husband. We have both undergone so much trials and tribulations together and separately during our marriage. We have seen the best and the worst in each other, and learnt to love one another in spite of everything. The first time I have ever seen him crying was during my farewell speech in MGS. Months later, at my prodding, he admitted (sheepishly) that he had felt very touched.

To end the year, Wan actually got a place in CBN. We silently rejoiced. The awareness of the saying, "Be careful what you wish for, you may very well get it." has made us more cautious. I spoke to Wan about the importance of deciding what is right or wrong. I see the change in her, especially in her piano practice.

We welcome 2012 with open arms and minds. Like what Lin wrote in her English essay when she was in Form 1 - "Well begun is half done."